Do you ever feel exposed? Exposed to something you have never taken too seriously? And when exposed, you can feel the cold. Oh, that cold that settles deep down in your soul and stays there for a while, making you lose your mind, your ration, your sleep. You start to think the problem is somewhere outside, you seek for it until you get tired. But you can’t stop, you know? It’s there. It drives you crazy. You need to fix it.
It gets colder, and colder, and colder. You lose hope. Until you look somewhere else. You look inside your soul and you find the exact solution. Because all this time you had the answer beneath your thoughts. You own the power. You can fix it. You will fix it. You get that excitement because you know that is over. The cold is over. So you grab your coat. You get warmer. And sometimes, but just sometimes, you take one more coat over the already existing one just to be sure.
“I am convinced that the deepest desire within each of us is to be liberated from the controlling influences of our own psychic madness or patterns of fear. All other things—the disdain of ordinary life, the need to control others rather than be controlled, the craving for material goods as a means of security and protection against the winds of chaos—are external props that serve as substitutes for the real battle, which is the one waged within the individual soul.”